Technically I am officially 6 months and a week since I didn't get the opportunity to post last week due to Cardinal conference craziness. Back to the 6 months factor...wow. Last week was the first "milestone" that we had that made me say "wait....what?!?" I am how far along? How did that happen already?
On one end I am SO excited and happy that things are moving along so quickly, as I truly can't wait to meet our little Baby C. But on the other end I really don't want my pregnancy to come to end. I am honestly really enjoying this experience so much. I feel so lucky to be experiencing it in the first place, but the fact I have had such a great pregnancy so far has really, really helped. Not to mention that our little peanut's movements have turned into full fledged punches and kicks in the last week or so. They are so distinct now that you can sometimes SEE them. So much fun! I thought that I loved the butterflies, but wow...this has taken it to a whole other level. Which has in turn taken my love for this little peanut to an even higher level than it was before. Wow...just amazing I tell ya.
Speaking of movements our little one decided that it was a good idea to wake Mommy up last Saturday morning at 7:45 by kicking her as much as possible until she decided it was time to get up and feed the little one. While I wasn't so excited about the time that I was rolling out of bed (literally at this point), I loved every single moment of it. Now don't get me wrong, I wasn't quite prepared for the fact that I am already getting my sleep interrupted by our little one, but man if that isn't the best feeling in the world I really don't know what is. For those of you out of town, I have been trying very hard to get a video of it so I can send it to you. It turns out, however, that Baby C seems to be a little camera shy. As every single time I get the phone aimed right where I want it to be and push record, the little booger decides the better location to kick or punch Mommy is on the exact opposite side of my belly that the camera/phone is pointed. So it may take me so time, but it is my mission to get you all at least one video of these kicks before this little one makes an arrival.
Feeling these movements have really helped to calm my nerves and make me feel as though I can finally fully enjoy this experience and just let go. Prior to these daily kicks (which I should note is happening as I type this because I am finishing up my lunch) I would get so worried if there would be a day or two without feeling this little one. I think part of it is something that all of us "first time moms" go through while pregnant, but I also fully believe that a larger part of it is because I think I am trained after the last three years of disappointment that it probably means that something is wrong and I shouldn't allow myself to get excited or feel the true joy that I do right now. It's a little sad, but so true. I don't know how you can't feel that way, to be honest, coming from the place that we have. All of it means, however, that we are just going to love this little one with every single ounce of our being and this baby is going to be the most wanted baby on the block.
I am also VERY excited because we are getting all of our nursery furniture delivered this week!! WOO HOO! We are getting the crib on Thursday and everything else on Friday. I can't wait!! I have a feeling once we get everything set up it will be all that Tone can do to drag me out of there every single day. I already go in there a few times a week and talk to the baby. So I know once I get my comfy glider and have things to look at, it's going to be all that I want to do. So if any of you ever can't find me, that would be the first place I would check. I am also extra excited because now that we will have furniture that means I can start washing all of the clothes and blankets that we have so far and start to put them away. OMG...I can only imagine how fun that is going to be! I just can't wait till I get to fold my first piece of little teeny, tiny laundry and put it into a dresser drawer. If I know me...I am probably going to cry. ;-)
Our annual Halloween party is this Friday as well. Which as all of you know, is a BIG deal in our house. We literally start planning for this bad boy in August. I can't wait to show everyone what our costumes are, and will be sure to post a picture for all of you to see next week. It's really hard for me to believe that this is our last year as a twosome costume. Next year we will have to figure out something for THREE! :)
Tuesday, October 23, 2012
Monday, October 8, 2012
Halfway there...
So I have been a bit of a slacker on getting up a new post the last couple of weeks. Things have been pretty nutty here at work and once I get home as well. So I apologize to any of you who are checking this on a weekly basis.
We are officially halfway there...well actually now it's more than halfway there since, as of today, I am almost 23 weeks. It's funny when I stop to think about the fact that in about 17 or so weeks that we are about to become parents I feel a little like I can't really wrap my head around it. This is something that we have wanted/wished/hoped for, for so long that now that it's about to actually happen I find myself really not believing it. But then again, how do you ever really come to terms with the fact that your entire life as you know it is about to change...and change dramatically. Actually I am not sure that dramatically even begins to cover the depth of the change we are about to experience. I think my brain is trying to find ways to reconcile this fact, but I just don't think I am there yet. I have found myself thinking "hmmm...I wonder how much longer I will get to do this" while doing the simplest things. Things that I take for granted every single day, such as: a hot meal - last week I burnt my tongue pretty good on some super hot home made potato soup and found myself thinking I should probably enjoy that while it lasts; watching TV - for how much longer will a vast part (sadly) of my evening be spent on the couch next to my hubby watching our favorite shows, and which of those shows will "make the cut" once we have to start cutting back.
Yep, as you can probably tell I think about all of this a little too much. At the same time though, I don't know how you can help it. Especially now our little one has started to really move around, to the point I feel movements every single day. Such an amazing feeling, knowing there is a little life your creating moving around inside of you. I can't wait to meet our baby, to find out if we're having a boy or a girl, who he/she looks like, to hold our angel in my arms for the first time, all of the wonderful things that come along with becoming a mom. But then, admittedly a little bit of terror starts to kick in too. "Am I going to be a good mom?" "Am I REALLY going to know what to do that first sleepless night when I can't get the baby to stop crying?" "What if I really do have a 10lb baby? Can I handle that?" "OMG....I am going to be a MOM!" "Someone is going to be entirely dependant on Tone and I" "Wait...I know I have wanted this forever...but do I really have to give birth (see 10lb baby reference)". Whew...it's a lot to take in, especially when I think about it all at once. All in all though I can not wait until our little one gets here. I am honestly truly enjoying being pregnant, but I am ready to meet Baby Collura too.
I have also noticed that I have started to get slightly obsessive, okay maybe full on obsessive about all things "baby". I am finding myself preoccupied at work while thinking of something that I am sure we need to get done this week or it will be "too late". I am not sure if this is the beginning stages of nesting, or just normal pregnancy crazy. But it has started my friends. I obsessed over child birthing classes until we booked one....two months in advance. We are both obsessing over getting the nursery finished, and though Tone is the only one working on it (he won't let me assist) I am ready for it to be finished so we can start decorating. I won't bore you all with the gory details, but let's just say the obsession is here and in full force.
All in all at least once I day I still have to pinch myself to make sure I am not just dreaming this. It all just seems to good to be true. I honestly thought at this point that I would no longer feel this way, but now I have come to terms with the fact that this may be something I have to do until our little one gets here. I continue to feel great, and other than a few aches and pains here and there I really have zero complaints. But honestly I think even if I was miserable I would still love every moment of it.
I hope you all have a great week and will do my best to put up another post next week. Especially since we will be at 6 months!!!
We are officially halfway there...well actually now it's more than halfway there since, as of today, I am almost 23 weeks. It's funny when I stop to think about the fact that in about 17 or so weeks that we are about to become parents I feel a little like I can't really wrap my head around it. This is something that we have wanted/wished/hoped for, for so long that now that it's about to actually happen I find myself really not believing it. But then again, how do you ever really come to terms with the fact that your entire life as you know it is about to change...and change dramatically. Actually I am not sure that dramatically even begins to cover the depth of the change we are about to experience. I think my brain is trying to find ways to reconcile this fact, but I just don't think I am there yet. I have found myself thinking "hmmm...I wonder how much longer I will get to do this" while doing the simplest things. Things that I take for granted every single day, such as: a hot meal - last week I burnt my tongue pretty good on some super hot home made potato soup and found myself thinking I should probably enjoy that while it lasts; watching TV - for how much longer will a vast part (sadly) of my evening be spent on the couch next to my hubby watching our favorite shows, and which of those shows will "make the cut" once we have to start cutting back.
Yep, as you can probably tell I think about all of this a little too much. At the same time though, I don't know how you can help it. Especially now our little one has started to really move around, to the point I feel movements every single day. Such an amazing feeling, knowing there is a little life your creating moving around inside of you. I can't wait to meet our baby, to find out if we're having a boy or a girl, who he/she looks like, to hold our angel in my arms for the first time, all of the wonderful things that come along with becoming a mom. But then, admittedly a little bit of terror starts to kick in too. "Am I going to be a good mom?" "Am I REALLY going to know what to do that first sleepless night when I can't get the baby to stop crying?" "What if I really do have a 10lb baby? Can I handle that?" "OMG....I am going to be a MOM!" "Someone is going to be entirely dependant on Tone and I" "Wait...I know I have wanted this forever...but do I really have to give birth (see 10lb baby reference)". Whew...it's a lot to take in, especially when I think about it all at once. All in all though I can not wait until our little one gets here. I am honestly truly enjoying being pregnant, but I am ready to meet Baby Collura too.
I have also noticed that I have started to get slightly obsessive, okay maybe full on obsessive about all things "baby". I am finding myself preoccupied at work while thinking of something that I am sure we need to get done this week or it will be "too late". I am not sure if this is the beginning stages of nesting, or just normal pregnancy crazy. But it has started my friends. I obsessed over child birthing classes until we booked one....two months in advance. We are both obsessing over getting the nursery finished, and though Tone is the only one working on it (he won't let me assist) I am ready for it to be finished so we can start decorating. I won't bore you all with the gory details, but let's just say the obsession is here and in full force.
All in all at least once I day I still have to pinch myself to make sure I am not just dreaming this. It all just seems to good to be true. I honestly thought at this point that I would no longer feel this way, but now I have come to terms with the fact that this may be something I have to do until our little one gets here. I continue to feel great, and other than a few aches and pains here and there I really have zero complaints. But honestly I think even if I was miserable I would still love every moment of it.
I hope you all have a great week and will do my best to put up another post next week. Especially since we will be at 6 months!!!
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